Chapter 4
“Mom, Dad, why are you here? It’s been so hard for me to find you.”
Noella rushed over with an anxious look on her face, looking a little.
unnatural.
After seeing the body, she pretended to scream on purpose.
“What is this? It’s so scary!”
Lilliana instinctively covered her eyes.
“Noella, don’t be afraid. I’m here.”
Noella threw herself into her mother’s arms with a look of fear.
“Mom, is this Madeline? How could she turn out like this?”
I sneered beside her. She had always had good acting skills. She should know best how I turned out like this..
Why was she pretending to be so innocent?
Lilliana frowned and her hands trembled uncontrollably.
“Didn’t Madeline know how to swim? How could she drown? Was she committing suicide just because we gave her a little punishment?”
“Is this worthy of my ten months of pregnancy and the hard work I put into giving birth to her?”
Lilliana’s shoulders trembled slightly and Jacob’s face was serious.
“Don’t be so hasty to jump to conclusions, the body has been corroded to such a hellish state, whether it is Madeline or not is still uncertain.” Lilliana’s tone carried a hint of hesitation.
“But that gray sweater….” Jacob replied in a heavy tone as he lowered hist
gaze.
“Can we just rely on a gray sweater to identify it as Madeline?”
He glanced at Noella, as if he had made up his mind about something.
“Listen to me, let’s go home first.”
“Noella’s birthday is coming up in a few days. There will be many relatives and friends coming to celebrate. We shouldn’t be affected by such bad luck.”
Noella’s eyes were red, but there was a hint of cunning in them.
The family of three supported each other as they left and I followed. behind. This feeling was very similar to before my death.
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Whenever my family was together, I was always the redundant one.
Even in the family photo, the three of them were sitting in the front, while I stood alone at the back.
I once asked them why they could not love me more.
But my mother’s slap hit me straight in the face.
“Noella has suffered so much and gone through so much pain, what’s wrong with me loving her more?”
“Why are you so selfish? She’s your sister. If it weren’t for her, would there be you in this world?”
With those words in mind, I had always been clear that I was not born out
of love.
From then on, I had to carefully maintain my relationship with my parents. I didn’t dare to get close to them, but I longed for love.
- me.
The gift that my father casually gave me was like a precious treasure to
My mother’s casual words of concern made me so happy that I could not sleep all night.
I had really tried many times to get close to them and get a little bit of the love I had been dreaming of for a long time.
But every time I tried
time I tried to get closer, Noella would appear and break it all.
“I’m so envious of Madeline. If something happens to me one day, only Madeline will be able to stay with you two.”
“I hope that by then, Mom and Dad will completely forget about me. If there is a chance, I will still be your child. I want to have a healthy body and not let you worry about me anymore….”
Her teary eyes and eerie words instantly dissolved the family affection that I had finally sought.
Lilliana and Jacob felt sorry for her poor health, so they hired a special nutritionist for her. Lilliana stayed with her full–time and Jacob even invested in a private hospital specifically for her.
I also tried to please Noella, but she sneered and said to me, “Madeline, you’re no longer useful. You should have left a long time ago.”
I had tried to leave home completely, but just as I was about to make up my mind, I kept thinking of my mother, who gently put me to bed and my father,
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who stood for me and solved problems for me.
I could not tell whether I was too lacking in love or too soft–hearted. Perhaps it was the simple affection they expressed unintentionally, which weighed on my shoulders and became a desire that I could not give up.
I thought I was actually quite ridiculous.
One had to wait until death and witness with one’s own eyes how cruel one’s parents were before one could realize the truth.
Love could not be forced.
After so many years of subtle influence, Noella pretended to be good and pitiful time and time again, making it a sin for our parents to love me.
It seemed that I was born to be despised so that I could comfort my older sister’s imperfect life.
Was this what they called fairness in their eyes?
I did not get it.
I could only follow them in the form of my soul, watching Noella cry in
grievance.
“It’s all my fault. If I had been smarter and had dodged when Madeline pushed me, you wouldn’t have been angry, punished her and she wouldn’t have.
died.”
Watching our mother holding her in her arms and patting her shoulders.
gently.
“It has
nothing to do with you. She is just too fragile mentally. You have suffered so much, but you have never given up so easily. She was born with such good conditions, but she allowed herself to fall into depravity.”
“Noella, don’t blame yourself. Even if it’s your parents‘ fault, it won’t have anything to do with you.”
Jacob let out a heavy sigh, the atmosphere was particularly solemn and finally, he spoke in a deep voice.
“I’ll take care of it all, Noella. I just want you to relax, don’t let yourself be affected by this.”
“We are not at fault in this matter.”
Hearing those words, I burst out laughing.
Yeah, yeah, no one was at fault..
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It was me who was at fault.
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I was the one who did not know what was wrong with me and I was the one who tried to get a piece of my family’s love.
It was my own fault. I knew they did not care about me at all, but I still could not give up the kindness they gave to me.
It was my fault.
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