“If you won’t, I will.”
He chuckled, “Sure, do you know how?”
I had no idea, so I just kissed him.
It was new and awkward.
Ben’s expression grew darker.
He let me take control.
But I had no experience, and started shaking.
Then I had no idea what to do.
I buried myself into his shoulder, and bit him.
His fingers cupped my neck, and started
His voice was getting rough. “I’ll give you two
choices.”
“One is for the doctor to handle this, the
other is for me to do it.”
“Which one do you want?”
I looked up at him.
After hesitating, I said, “If I pick you, will you
marry me?”
There was a tsunami behind Ben’s eyes.
He said, “Okay.”
I replied immediately, “Pick you! Pick you!”
Ben squeezed my waist and bit my lips.
It was different from his formal persona, the
kiss was deep and heavy.
I was getting weak, and my mind was going
numb.
I was dragged into the ocean of desire.
The feeling was suffocating, I couldn’t handle
- it.
I was trying to escape.
But I kept being dragged back in.
The feeling was more intense.
I yelled, “Stop it!”
With every collision, a low voice spoke.
“I messed up.
وو
Ben touched my trembling skin, and he said,
“It’s too late to regret it.”
I couldn’t get any rest and fell asleep right
before sunrise.
When I woke up, Ben was gone.
I was still in his room.
There were fresh clothes for me.
I got a shock when I went into the bathroom.
My body was full of bruises.
I remembered everything from the night
before.
I covered my face and flushed.
13
The whole family knew I spent the night in
Ben’s room.
Ben took me to meet his family.
He just announced that we were getting
married.
Matt was pissed.
Sarah dragged me to her room and asked,
“Are you sure about this?”
“Of course, I like Ben, not just for you.”
“But you’re a big reason.”
”
Sarah hugged me and said, “I want you to be
happy.”
“I’m happy you’re coming to the family, but I
just want you to be happy.”
“I don’t know much about Ben. Matt is scared
of him, he doesn’t talk about him.”
“But I heard about his past. He’s not what you
think.”
I patted her back. “I know, I’ve made up my
mind.”
14
Ben was efficient. We got our marriage
license the next day.
