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Iwatched her back.
The girl, still carrying the youthful air, even though proud and arrogant, had clear eyes. Her high ponytail swayed behind her, and under the white short skirt, her snow–white thighs were exposed.
Just like me back then.
Even between her eyebrows and eyes, there was a slight resemblance to the me of the past.
I didn’t romantically think that Lucas was looking for a younger version of me in her. Maybe he has always liked this type, whether it’s in his 20s or 30s, he likes girls in their early 20s.
That night, I didn’t argue with Lucas. I took the bedding and went to the guest room, and he didn’t
stop me.
Before leaving, I asked one last question, “Lucas, what were you really thinking?”
I loved this man for ten years.
Even if this relationship is dead, I want to die clearly and understandingly.
Lucas took a cigarette from the cigarette case and held it between his fingers. He lowered his head
for a moment and suddenly said, “Helen, I grew tired.”
The orange flames danced in the air as he took a deep breath and exhaled white mist, then turned to
look at me.
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“I got tired of you constantly revolving around me all day long, asking me what to eat, what to eat, what to eat every day.”
“I married a wife, not a cook. Besides cooking three meals a day for me, what else can you do?”
I stared at him for a while, amidst the white mist, as the boy who once held me and said, “My dream
is to eat my wife’s cooking for the rest of my life,” slowly faded away with the smoke.
At this moment, I finally realized.
The boy I used to love has long been worn down and shattered by time, disappearing completely..
The man before me is no longer the lover I remember.
I didn’t speak anymore and turned around to leave.
The next day, Lucas went to work as usual.
He didn’t explain anything to me about what happened yesterday.
le probably didn’t think it necessary to explain. In his opinion, I might still swallow my pride like before and act as if nothing had happened.
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But after I poured the fish soup that had cooled and turned rancid, which no one had drunk, into the tgilet, I immediately left and got a divorce agreement.
Marriage and vegetables are actually not that different, I suddenly realized.
I couldn’t eat this dish anymore, so I didn’t eat it.
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As I sat on the plane, I looked out of the window. The magnificent skyscrapers gradually shrank
until they were no longer visible, and then they were covered by thick clouds.
I came to this city for Lucas back then.
He wanted to start a business in the big city, so I gave up my career as a chef and followed him here. I still remember when I left, the restaurant owner was extremely upset. “You are the most promising chef in these years. If you persist, you will definitely achieve great success. Why did you quit?”
My family’s craftsmanship has been passed down for many generations, and my ancestors have received plaques bestowed by the emperor.
I also wanted to promote the Scott family recipe, but at that time, my heart and mind were filled
with Lucas.
My parents passed away early. At that time, I had only learned half of the recipes when they had a
car accident and were gone. I was raised by my grandmother.
After my grandmother passed away, I didn’t have any relatives left in this world.
Sometimes I wonder if it’s because there were too few people appearing in my life that I cherish
Lucas so much, and that’s why I compromised again and again to keep him.
He often neglected to eat because of meetings, so I would prepare three meals for him at home Se day.
In order to accommodate his schedule, I gave up my own dreams and became a housewife.
The past passion and dreams slowly drifted away from me, leaving only a mundane life of daily
necessities.
But I enjoyed it willingly.
¡Because I liked him.
I naively thought that as long as we loved each other, everything would be fine. Looking back now, it was really foolish.
Originally, it couldn’t be kept, after all, it couldn’t be kept. Like the lyrics say, the sand that can’t be
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held, it’s better to let go.
